Setting a Real Goal
I'm pretty sure that a one hour lunch breaks is a little gift I get to unwrap each day. It's like one of those 'gifts' on Let's Make a Deal though and can contain a Zonk some days. Today was not one of those days. I ate my salad at 10am and had a whole lunch hour to walk so I set out on a brisk walk around a nice neighborhood near work. It has a few hills, got me 2.25 miles already for the day and only took me about 35minutes to complete. Once I got back to work and still had 25 minutes I was able to go out and run the errand I thought I was going to have to run tonight after work. Frackin' score!
I also got up this morning and did an ab workout and followed it up with a breakfast made of a banana and peanut butter (hence eating my lunch at 10am...). By all accounts I am KILLING it today! I feel pretty redeemed for the first couple of days of the week when I was being killed by the proverbial it. I'm on my way.
I didn't weigh myself on my hard rainy days because I felt like it would discourage and depress me but I was surprised to notice that I didn't gain weight back over those few days. I realized that I have this quiet fear that I'm going to wake up one morning and all the weight will have come back. Is this something everyone who loses substantial weight feels? I suspect it might be because there is nothing worse than feeling like you've accomplished something huge just to have a setback (however preventable) that makes it all seem futile.
I just reread my anniversary blog from last year when I had lost 34 lbs and was at 178lbs. I'm still hovering around there now and I clearly meant to lose the last 23 over the past 355 days but I haven't. I didn't make any noticeable gains in the past year and that somehow doesn't bother me. I kept the 34lbs off and I am kicking shit into high gear now. I don't expect that from a year from now I will be in the same position and struggling to get out of the high 70's. I genuinely feel like I know how to do this now.
I've been timid my whole life about setting goals for myself because I am scared I won't meet them. I don't like failing so if I always just "try my best" I'm usually pleased with myself and being pleased leads to being happy and I am a really big fan of happy. That's a cop out though and I know it. If I'm being honest with myself, I didn't try a damn bit over the last year to lose those 23lbs. Keeping off the 34 is an accomplishment and I don't regret doing it this way but if I keep being easy on myself, it is possible I won't ever lose those last 23.
After feeling the high of a couple of days of killing it I know I can do it. I don't have to be afraid of failing if I just keep doing what I know will help me lose the last of the weight... I want to set a goal for myself to lose the rest of the weight by my birthday in September but 23lbs in 3 months is pretty aggressive and that might be setting myself up to fail. Half the weight in 3 months though... That is completely doable at my current pace I think. So that's the new goal. By my birthday I will weigh 165lbs. Mark that shit and if I write a pissy blog about how I just couldn't do it, call me out on it and make me feel the wrath and shame of being a loser :) Those are big stakes because I love to be loved. If I do make it please make a point to tell me how incredibly awesome I am because when I want to eat a chicken burger from now until then I'll need to think about all of those awesome things you'll say to make me feel like a hero, not a loser.
<3 Katie
175lbs
9
I also got up this morning and did an ab workout and followed it up with a breakfast made of a banana and peanut butter (hence eating my lunch at 10am...). By all accounts I am KILLING it today! I feel pretty redeemed for the first couple of days of the week when I was being killed by the proverbial it. I'm on my way.
I didn't weigh myself on my hard rainy days because I felt like it would discourage and depress me but I was surprised to notice that I didn't gain weight back over those few days. I realized that I have this quiet fear that I'm going to wake up one morning and all the weight will have come back. Is this something everyone who loses substantial weight feels? I suspect it might be because there is nothing worse than feeling like you've accomplished something huge just to have a setback (however preventable) that makes it all seem futile.
I just reread my anniversary blog from last year when I had lost 34 lbs and was at 178lbs. I'm still hovering around there now and I clearly meant to lose the last 23 over the past 355 days but I haven't. I didn't make any noticeable gains in the past year and that somehow doesn't bother me. I kept the 34lbs off and I am kicking shit into high gear now. I don't expect that from a year from now I will be in the same position and struggling to get out of the high 70's. I genuinely feel like I know how to do this now.
I've been timid my whole life about setting goals for myself because I am scared I won't meet them. I don't like failing so if I always just "try my best" I'm usually pleased with myself and being pleased leads to being happy and I am a really big fan of happy. That's a cop out though and I know it. If I'm being honest with myself, I didn't try a damn bit over the last year to lose those 23lbs. Keeping off the 34 is an accomplishment and I don't regret doing it this way but if I keep being easy on myself, it is possible I won't ever lose those last 23.
After feeling the high of a couple of days of killing it I know I can do it. I don't have to be afraid of failing if I just keep doing what I know will help me lose the last of the weight... I want to set a goal for myself to lose the rest of the weight by my birthday in September but 23lbs in 3 months is pretty aggressive and that might be setting myself up to fail. Half the weight in 3 months though... That is completely doable at my current pace I think. So that's the new goal. By my birthday I will weigh 165lbs. Mark that shit and if I write a pissy blog about how I just couldn't do it, call me out on it and make me feel the wrath and shame of being a loser :) Those are big stakes because I love to be loved. If I do make it please make a point to tell me how incredibly awesome I am because when I want to eat a chicken burger from now until then I'll need to think about all of those awesome things you'll say to make me feel like a hero, not a loser.
<3 Katie
175lbs
9
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