A Good Man

I have come to learn from doing this blog that I don't do stress well. When I'm stressed I'm not myself and I'm pretty miserable to be around. Yesterday, with a research paper staring me down, I let myself get worked up and stress got the better of me. On my last day of a wonderful 3 day weekend, I was... well... a shrew.

I don't think I'm alone though. I think we all have our moments that we look back on and feel a deep shame for being so absolutely ridiculous. Certainly sometimes it is warranted but, for me, when I get like that I'm usually being pretty absurd.... like "How come you're not reading my mind and just do what I think you should be doing?!" I should also note that I'm one of those people that when I'm all pissy I can't help but slam things around. Anything I touch, I touch with force. I'm not proud of that but I can't seem to help myself.

Photo: Little Wilson FallsLuckily for me, the love of my life has the patience of a saint. In my experience, moods like that are contagious. If you're around someone in a mood like that, it is only a matter of time before it sucks you down too. I don't know how he does it but Ben doesn't let my moods effect him like that. Yesterday he could have easily written me off and let me wallow in my own ridiculousness but he didn't. Instead, he set up the deck chairs, went on a beer run, prepared dinner then invited me out on the porch for a beer break. Simply put, he's amazing and thoughtful and a great man. The result? I felt kinda dumb for acting like such an idiot but all of that was trumped by how grateful I felt to have someone in my life that cares enough about me to rescue me from a foul mood of my own creation.

I have made the progress I have, in part, because of the support he gives me. He is my cheerleader, knight in shining armor, BFF, and hot stud. What more could I ask for? I love this guy with all my heart and soul.

<3 Katie
Day 347
182lbs
Feeling loved

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