All I want for Xmas is a Home Gym
November through December is mostly known among those trying to lose weight as the enemy. Between cookie swaps, holiday meals, drinking, and parties with all kinds of things to make you a naughty weight loser it is extremely difficult to hold your own if you don't have will power.
The not so great thing about will power is that it is subjective. Sometimes it is easy to say no and other times it is like an obsessive compulsion that won't go away until I give in. I am happy to report I haven't gained back enough weight to take away my "I've lost 20lbs" mantra but I'm circling the drain. Luckily, after this week, I'll only have to battle the winter instead of winter and holidays. Yay.
I feel like I am living the fitness equivalent of asking for a Red Rider BB gun and being told you'll shoot your eye out. When I joined Anytime Fitness I felt like it gave me a destination and a workout purpose. When I started walking around my neighborhood this summer, I felt like I had a workout comfort zone. While Zumba is an excellent workout, I haven't been able to make it more than once per week and on nights like tonight when a thick layer of ice is covering everything outside including my car and the roads, I don't have the luxury of making it there. In fact, I should just be starting to shake my ass but instead I am home, on my couch, writing my blog. Seems counter productive huh?
On top of all I've just mentioned, I work in retail. Sure, I work in the marketing department of a retail organization but Christmas seems to be when you find out if all you've done all year is working. When it isn't I feel like I want a chicken burger and fries dressed in ranch.... (as I was writing that line, I started to spell "fries" as "friends".... um... I think that in itself is a sign). On top of all the other pressures I'm letting the pressure of whether the numbers are going to be good enough work me up. Working out is such a great way to remedy stress but after stressing all day I don't have a plan in place to let it loose so I stress about what workout I'm going to do. Then I work long days and sometimes there really isn't time for a workout or even a blog post about how I'm not working out.
Just reading this is starting to stress me out again. The best part of this blog is that it helps me to identify the things I need to work on to turn this into a lifestyle instead of a weight loss plan. My great friend Theresa invited me to try SuperBetter with her. This is a website that helps you accomplish goals by turning the process into a game. While it does sound interesting I'm finding that I really suck at keeping on a regiment to do stuff like this every day. With the exception of this blog, anything else I have to figure out that might help me feels like it is just taking time away from actually working out. If I had a gym at home I'd do a workout in the morning and a workout at night every single day. I know that sounds like a great excuse, but I really mean it. If I could have a routine that didn't take significant effort just to get into a position to workout, I'd do it. The problem is that it takes thought and planning and discipline and I know I'm not alone in that because I'm pretty sure that's why I was chubtastic in the first place.
My new year resolution is not to lose weight. That is going to be the byproduct. My resolution is going to be improving my thought and planning behind my workouts. I know what problems I have, now all I need to do is solve them. And after tomorrow I can relax a little.... at least until Valentine's day....
<3 Katie
Day 195
192lbs
Feeling like Ralphie on a Christmas story when he tries to climb up the slide only to be kicked back down by Santa
Day 195
The not so great thing about will power is that it is subjective. Sometimes it is easy to say no and other times it is like an obsessive compulsion that won't go away until I give in. I am happy to report I haven't gained back enough weight to take away my "I've lost 20lbs" mantra but I'm circling the drain. Luckily, after this week, I'll only have to battle the winter instead of winter and holidays. Yay.
I feel like I am living the fitness equivalent of asking for a Red Rider BB gun and being told you'll shoot your eye out. When I joined Anytime Fitness I felt like it gave me a destination and a workout purpose. When I started walking around my neighborhood this summer, I felt like I had a workout comfort zone. While Zumba is an excellent workout, I haven't been able to make it more than once per week and on nights like tonight when a thick layer of ice is covering everything outside including my car and the roads, I don't have the luxury of making it there. In fact, I should just be starting to shake my ass but instead I am home, on my couch, writing my blog. Seems counter productive huh?On top of all I've just mentioned, I work in retail. Sure, I work in the marketing department of a retail organization but Christmas seems to be when you find out if all you've done all year is working. When it isn't I feel like I want a chicken burger and fries dressed in ranch.... (as I was writing that line, I started to spell "fries" as "friends".... um... I think that in itself is a sign). On top of all the other pressures I'm letting the pressure of whether the numbers are going to be good enough work me up. Working out is such a great way to remedy stress but after stressing all day I don't have a plan in place to let it loose so I stress about what workout I'm going to do. Then I work long days and sometimes there really isn't time for a workout or even a blog post about how I'm not working out.
Just reading this is starting to stress me out again. The best part of this blog is that it helps me to identify the things I need to work on to turn this into a lifestyle instead of a weight loss plan. My great friend Theresa invited me to try SuperBetter with her. This is a website that helps you accomplish goals by turning the process into a game. While it does sound interesting I'm finding that I really suck at keeping on a regiment to do stuff like this every day. With the exception of this blog, anything else I have to figure out that might help me feels like it is just taking time away from actually working out. If I had a gym at home I'd do a workout in the morning and a workout at night every single day. I know that sounds like a great excuse, but I really mean it. If I could have a routine that didn't take significant effort just to get into a position to workout, I'd do it. The problem is that it takes thought and planning and discipline and I know I'm not alone in that because I'm pretty sure that's why I was chubtastic in the first place.
My new year resolution is not to lose weight. That is going to be the byproduct. My resolution is going to be improving my thought and planning behind my workouts. I know what problems I have, now all I need to do is solve them. And after tomorrow I can relax a little.... at least until Valentine's day....
<3 Katie
Day 195
192lbs
Feeling like Ralphie on a Christmas story when he tries to climb up the slide only to be kicked back down by Santa
Day 195
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