Failure Across State Lines

No sense in being coy about it, today I was LAZY! I got up too late, didn't work out this morning, all the while knowing that I was headed to Boston for a work trip. After a tapas dinner we are back at the room and it is 9:30p. I foolishly thought "I'll just go explore the fitness room after dinner." This week is not going to go well if it keeps going like today. 

Being in a new place is hard on routines. There is no comfortable workout spot that you know in and out and it feels like you're starting over at a new school. I've got to find a way to make this work. I think the first step is to familiarize myself with the fitness room so that tomorrow morning I can go down without feeling like I am feeling my way through a dark room. 

The next step is to remember that this is all a part of who I am now. I am not someone who chooses to stay in bed when I should be walking or hell something even more strenuous... like running.... I need to crave this and I'm getting close. The weekends feel like I am getting away with something because I don't exercise like I do during the week. 

Today was not a day that I will celebrate because it was so productive. Today was one of those days when I set out with the best intentions knowing that circumstance was going give me the excuse I needed not to follow through. 

I weighed myself this morning and I am still at 199-200lbs. I have been hovering in the same spot for so long now and it is because I am not pushing myself. It is because I am still in "just do it" mode and I haven't put much focus on how good the exercise is for me, I only focus on the fact that I am doing it. In an effort to stop this I am going to explore the gym. Tomorrow I am going to get my ass out of bed and I am going to work that gym like only a Maine girl can. Then I am going to go to the Hubspot conference and work out my brain so that by the time I get back to Maine on Thursday, I feel like I can do anything, even if circumstance tries to laugh in my chubby little face. Bring it on circumstance. We are only just beginning.... 

<3Katie
Day 69
199lbs
Feeling like I'm 19 again

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