The Sun to Me: Why don't you want to hang out with me?!?
I wish losing weight was more like an addictive drug and less like a friend who makes you feel guilty when you don't want to hang out. I'm having another one of those weeks where I can't seem to get out of my own way. My body still thinks it is on vacation... as a result I can't seem to get my ass out of bed in the morning to go play with the sunshine on my walk route. I can't seem to stay motivated and I can't seem to stay hydrated.
Before this past excursion, I hadn't been on vacation since 2009. Having a week off was really awesome but it broke the habits in my head. I thought going to an awesome Zumba class would make me crave it again Wednesday but it really didn't. I don't know what my problem is this week.
That being said it wasn't a complete failure of a week. I had a great Zumba session, walked Tuesday and Wednesday nights and I hope to get a good walk in tonight with Nancy before we commence out card playing. I also passed on cake TWICE this week as there was a birthday and a going away party at work. That's a win....
I did however mow down on some Chinese food and I enjoyed the hell out of a beer. I really try to keep my beer consumption to a minimum but this was an exceptional beer. Ben's awesome sister Amy and her Hubby Matt got us a "Beer of the Month" club for Christmas and I thought it had ended with our June shipment but to our surprise another came this month! One of the featured brews was an American Lager and it was just crisp and clean and delicious! I couldn't resist and it was the last one so why the hell not right?
I'm a little surprised at how little this is worrying me. That's a great thing though because I could definitely benefit from being a little less neurotic.... Not a lot less though because that's most of my character.... The way I see it though, as long as I am not gaining back what progress I've made so far, I shouldn't be too hard on myself. If I stress myself out about this it won't do me any good. My habits are part of who I am now and how I live my life. It is unreasonable to assume that I'm going to get it right all the time. Stuff comes up. Life happens. Sometimes you just gotta live it how it makes you happy and if that means staying in bed for a hour more instead of going for a walk then so be it sometimes.... The point is not to make a new habit out of a bad behavior right? Next week I need to plan better so that I can focus on getting back on track.
<3 Katie
Day 382
178lbs
Dear Sun, I do want to hang out. Sometimes I just want to hang out with Beer more... It's not you. It's me.
Before this past excursion, I hadn't been on vacation since 2009. Having a week off was really awesome but it broke the habits in my head. I thought going to an awesome Zumba class would make me crave it again Wednesday but it really didn't. I don't know what my problem is this week.
That being said it wasn't a complete failure of a week. I had a great Zumba session, walked Tuesday and Wednesday nights and I hope to get a good walk in tonight with Nancy before we commence out card playing. I also passed on cake TWICE this week as there was a birthday and a going away party at work. That's a win....
I did however mow down on some Chinese food and I enjoyed the hell out of a beer. I really try to keep my beer consumption to a minimum but this was an exceptional beer. Ben's awesome sister Amy and her Hubby Matt got us a "Beer of the Month" club for Christmas and I thought it had ended with our June shipment but to our surprise another came this month! One of the featured brews was an American Lager and it was just crisp and clean and delicious! I couldn't resist and it was the last one so why the hell not right?
I'm a little surprised at how little this is worrying me. That's a great thing though because I could definitely benefit from being a little less neurotic.... Not a lot less though because that's most of my character.... The way I see it though, as long as I am not gaining back what progress I've made so far, I shouldn't be too hard on myself. If I stress myself out about this it won't do me any good. My habits are part of who I am now and how I live my life. It is unreasonable to assume that I'm going to get it right all the time. Stuff comes up. Life happens. Sometimes you just gotta live it how it makes you happy and if that means staying in bed for a hour more instead of going for a walk then so be it sometimes.... The point is not to make a new habit out of a bad behavior right? Next week I need to plan better so that I can focus on getting back on track.
<3 Katie
Day 382
178lbs
Dear Sun, I do want to hang out. Sometimes I just want to hang out with Beer more... It's not you. It's me.
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