Hey Day, Are You Gonna Go My Way?
I really wanted to go to Zumba tonight. I needed it. I needed some time to cut loose and just do something good for me. I needed something I could just DO without thinking too much about it. As it turns out, when you don't THINK, you forget your sneakers. Zumba in socks might as well be suicide. When did I realize I forgot my sneakers? Exactly 3 seconds after walking through the door of the gym. Fail.
It has been a particularly trying couple of weeks and my patience are wearing things for stupid things like forgetting your sneakers. I don't feel like I have had time to do the things that keep me grounded and prepared for not being a chub-bucket. I have done myself a few favors that have made a big difference like keeping a mix of nuts and dried fruit in my bag for when I get hangry. I spent the weekend surrounded by pizza, donuts, cup cakes, and all kinds of other food that I had to actively avoid.
This is my last week of work before I finally get a day off to recuperate. I have a feeling this post would have been far more positive if I had made the Zumba class today but do you know why I love this blog so much? The more I put all my frustration from the day into writing, I am finding a sense of calm. By just channeling the frustration into something tangible I feel it start to dissipate instead of eating me alive.
At the risk of sounding like a petulant child, I'll confess that it really drives me crazy when the day doesn't go my way. I like to be rewarded for the sacrifices I make and the hard work I do but days like today feel like they are just working against me no matter what I do. It irritates me until I can't help but slam things around and be totally ridiculous. I really dislike that about myself and make considerable efforts to not allow myself to get to those points. Sometimes considerable efforts aren't enough though and it just busts out of me.
Tonight though, I'm just too worn out to let these things rile me up and turn me into the Katie-nado I'm known for becoming. I just don't have the energy for it. Instead of hulking out I sat down to write.
This week I begin Grad school and my time management will really be tested. I need to be prepared and follow this example of writing instead of overreacting to the tiniest of things that don't go my way. I just have to remember what the results feels like. As of today I am 29lbs lighter than when I started and that is so significant.
<3 Katie
Day 298
183lbs
Tomorrow is closer to Friday <3
It has been a particularly trying couple of weeks and my patience are wearing things for stupid things like forgetting your sneakers. I don't feel like I have had time to do the things that keep me grounded and prepared for not being a chub-bucket. I have done myself a few favors that have made a big difference like keeping a mix of nuts and dried fruit in my bag for when I get hangry. I spent the weekend surrounded by pizza, donuts, cup cakes, and all kinds of other food that I had to actively avoid.
This is my last week of work before I finally get a day off to recuperate. I have a feeling this post would have been far more positive if I had made the Zumba class today but do you know why I love this blog so much? The more I put all my frustration from the day into writing, I am finding a sense of calm. By just channeling the frustration into something tangible I feel it start to dissipate instead of eating me alive.
At the risk of sounding like a petulant child, I'll confess that it really drives me crazy when the day doesn't go my way. I like to be rewarded for the sacrifices I make and the hard work I do but days like today feel like they are just working against me no matter what I do. It irritates me until I can't help but slam things around and be totally ridiculous. I really dislike that about myself and make considerable efforts to not allow myself to get to those points. Sometimes considerable efforts aren't enough though and it just busts out of me.
Tonight though, I'm just too worn out to let these things rile me up and turn me into the Katie-nado I'm known for becoming. I just don't have the energy for it. Instead of hulking out I sat down to write.
This week I begin Grad school and my time management will really be tested. I need to be prepared and follow this example of writing instead of overreacting to the tiniest of things that don't go my way. I just have to remember what the results feels like. As of today I am 29lbs lighter than when I started and that is so significant.
<3 Katie
Day 298
183lbs
Tomorrow is closer to Friday <3
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