See Yourself Like Someone Who Loves You
I have never really had a job where I get to take a whole hour for lunch. This new found time in my life is so awesome and I struggle with what amazing things I can do in an hour. I can go for a ride and listen to my audiobook, write a blog entry, go to Kelmat for a delicious sandwich, get my grocery shopping done, and when the snow is gone I'll be able to walk on my break.
Today as I was sitting down to write this entry I got called to our front office because I had a package to pick up. Last time this happened I was disappointed to find that the package was a couple of calendars and a quasi-sales pitch from someone I worked with at Day's who clearly doesn't understand that my role here is way different than what I used to do there. When I came around the corner to see a gorgeous arrangement of flowers with a card that simply said "I love you more everyday" my heart exploded into pure glee. I am so lucky to have someone in my life that surprises and amazes me. He has been so patient with all the changes I've made in my life that impact his too. He is everything I dreamed about in a man and I couldn't be happier that we found our way to each other.
When I tried to lose weight in the past I always felt like some part of it was to help me find a great man that would love me like Ben does but I could never have imagined what it was like to be with someone that loves me any way I am. He always makes me feel beautiful and sexy even when I was at my biggest and when he looks at me I don't feel like he's looking past the fat to my heart. I think that is part of the reason this time has gone so well for me. It isn't about an end result other than being healthy and having the same image of myself as he has of me. Luckily he makes it contagious and when he looks at me with that loving look on his face I can't help but believe that I really am as beautiful as he tells me I am.
This year I hope that my mind and body will benefit from all of these great things in my life. I tend to overthink things.... everything.... but knowing what I have around me I want to work on being more present and not thinking about what is coming or has been, just what is and how amazing that it makes me feel.
<3 Katie
176lbs
Today as I was sitting down to write this entry I got called to our front office because I had a package to pick up. Last time this happened I was disappointed to find that the package was a couple of calendars and a quasi-sales pitch from someone I worked with at Day's who clearly doesn't understand that my role here is way different than what I used to do there. When I came around the corner to see a gorgeous arrangement of flowers with a card that simply said "I love you more everyday" my heart exploded into pure glee. I am so lucky to have someone in my life that surprises and amazes me. He has been so patient with all the changes I've made in my life that impact his too. He is everything I dreamed about in a man and I couldn't be happier that we found our way to each other.
When I tried to lose weight in the past I always felt like some part of it was to help me find a great man that would love me like Ben does but I could never have imagined what it was like to be with someone that loves me any way I am. He always makes me feel beautiful and sexy even when I was at my biggest and when he looks at me I don't feel like he's looking past the fat to my heart. I think that is part of the reason this time has gone so well for me. It isn't about an end result other than being healthy and having the same image of myself as he has of me. Luckily he makes it contagious and when he looks at me with that loving look on his face I can't help but believe that I really am as beautiful as he tells me I am.
This year I hope that my mind and body will benefit from all of these great things in my life. I tend to overthink things.... everything.... but knowing what I have around me I want to work on being more present and not thinking about what is coming or has been, just what is and how amazing that it makes me feel.
<3 Katie
176lbs
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