Before and Now

I can't call this blog the "Before and After" because I'm not quite done yet. My goal is 150lbs and right now I have about 25lbs to go. It being winter and snowmaggedon 2015 its been difficult to keep my activity level up but I've tried to adjust my calorie intake to compensate. This means that, yes, I've started counting calories and I have to say that it isn't nearly as bad as I thought. It helps making better choices all the time a lot easier because I've come to know how many calories are in the things I really crave.. IE Kelmat Sandwiches...

Valentine's Day 2015
Day 1
On Valentine's Day, Ben took a photo of me in my snow sliding gear. When I saw the photo I almost couldn't believe it. My mid section and thighs have never ever looked like that in a photo. This is the first photo of myself I've ever seen when I thought "DAMN! Look how skinny that girl is... wait that's ME!" It was an incredible feeling and reinvigorated me all over again. So I thought I should share the photo from Day 1 and the photo from now.

When I look at these two images I see a huge difference. When I think about how I feel when I started though I feel relatively the same. I don't feel like the change has been that drastic. I feel better but I feel like I've had the same self body image always. In my head when I imagine what I look like I see myself as not super chubby, decent proportions, and generally as a pretty sexy lady. I think this is one of the reasons that I was so shocked by the Valentine's Day photo. Even after seeing it I keep thinking that maybe its just the tight pants I'm wearing. I want to take another photo wearing the same clothes I did on day 1 and compare them side by side. I think when I do that I won't see such a huge difference like I do with the ones shown here.

I know for sure though that I am ready to get back to losing that last 25. I have kept my weight about the same from June 2014 to now and I think that was valuable because I need to learn how to maintain weight after being in patterns of losing weight and I think the last 8 months have helped me do that but I'm ready to just maintain for life and be done with the losing part. When the snow melts I think I can kick this into high gear because I am sooooo excited to get out and walk daily with Brutus and to hike on the weekends and tour the waterfalls and all kinds of other things that don't include sitting on the couch doing nothing. I'm psyched and ready to get this done.

<3 Katie
176lbs






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