SNOT FACE

I think today was meant to test my dedication. It seems like everything today isn't going right. Nothing seems like smooth sailing and I've got all kinds of stressors working on me from every angle. It is days like today that made me fail in the past. Stress makes everything seem overwhelming especially trying to figure out a plan for a healthy meal and fitting in a workout. It keeps coming back to planning doesn't it? I need to get my workouts in before work unless I'm doing Zumba. That is why walking works so well for me and it is seriously hindering my efforts! Luckily the time change is this weekend so even though it will be so friggin' cold, I'll be super excited to get up and go out in the mornings again. That way, there is no way I can talk myself out of it if I have a day like I had today.

I really am fired up about celebrating in June and I want to know that I earned it. It really is important to me so today is all about finding a way not finding an excuse. So far I have a gold star this week! If I turn it into a game for myself then maybe that will help a little too.

It also doesn't help that I am crazy hormonal this week. I wish I could adequately explain how much it sucks to have the hormones of a woman that fluctuate like they are controlled by a man... I just can't seem to keep my sunny disposition when every little thing seems like a giant crisis. Sometimes I literally stop and think "Holy unreasonable reaction Batman!" I know I am being a wackjob there is just nothing I can seem to do about it and then I find myself swearing like my mother and needing a kickboxing class.

The worse part though is the week leading up to the week I am hormonal. Last Friday I was watching the CBS evening news and my favorite segment came on. "On the Road with Steve Hartman" always has a story that is worth sharing. Friday's story was about a kid who gave a $20 bill to a soldier.  When it came on the TV I was super happy and bubbly and ready for Friday night. By the time it was over I looked like this kid.

When I had composed myself I thought "Oh boy. That was tear jerk worthy but not really sob worthy... next week is going to be a doozie..." Then I went about my Friday night and am just remember this whole episode right this moment. And you know what? I WAS FRIGGIN RIGHT! The Snot Face above has the right idea. Tomorrow MUST be better!

<3 Katie
Day 266
185lbs
I don't think I really need to note how I feel in the signature tonight do I?

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