Did you Miss Me?

I haven't written since July. It is almost November and the last thing I spoke about was making it to 165lbs by my birthday. I did it a week early and then just kind of coasted right through the rest of the month and the next one too. Now I'm back to planning for winter and how not to gain it all back and I realized that I need the one tool that actually works: this blog.

Of everything I've done this blog feels like the biggest change to my life because it keeps me accountable. I felt like I made a lot of progress this summer but looking back at this time last year I've only lost about 8lbs in the whole year. That feels like nothing when I see it "on paper" but it feels big and real in person. Those were the heaviest 8lbs I think I've ever encountered...

Regardless about the stats, I'm feeling really great about this and I'm ready to make more headway this winter. I've reworked my goal from 155 to 145 because I had no idea where my target should be when I started so I set 155 because that's what I have always claimed on my license.  Now that the loss doesn't feel arbitrary I think the 145 is where I should aim to be.

Also in the last 3 months I've been wrapping my head around planning a wedding. I've never fantasized about wedding dress shopping because dress shopping of any kind has always kind of been a nightmare. I always felt like I was too big to fit into any of the "off the rack" try-on dresses the shops would try to put me in and I'd have to just imagine what it would look like on me. I went last Monday though and boy was I wrong. The experience was amazing... just the way it should be. At one point the girl who was helping me said "This one looks so great! It shows off your tiny little waist!" I seriously stopped, looked at her and with the most glee I've ever had in my voice ever asked "Could you say that again? No one has ever said that my waist was tiny... like ever... and I want to savor the moment..." She excitedly obliged and I loved her for it. The dress pictured here is the one I feel in love with but I don't want to buy it... I want to make it... with the help of Ben's amazingly talented mother, Nancy. It is going to be a winter project that I think we are both going to love and I'll be so much more excited to tell everyone the dress was made by hand, with love.

When I started back in June of 2013 it was going to be hard to imagine being where I am today and planning a wedding! I'm so excited about my life and the progress I've made and I can't wait to get to the end of it and start just maintaining!

<3 Katie
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