Trouble with the Curvy

I couldn't wait any longer. I had to find out what the difference was when I tried on the same clothes as Day 1. Before and Now: Apples to apples...   I tried to even match the weird look on my face... That's a "Here's Johnny" smile on my face and that should worry us all but I think overall it is a good representation of what the loss really looks like. I also should have removed my sweet slippers but it's friggin' cold on that floor barefoot.   The difference here is 38lbs. One of the things I really struggled with was knowing what a certain weight looks like. I never weighed myself throughout my life because I honestly just didn't want to know. I didn't want to tie my self worth to a number and I think that was the right choice for me then.  Now that my self worth has been defined by other things I don't see the number as a threat but a motivator.  Having a visual of what I look like 38lbs heavier in the exact same clothes gives m

I can't call this blog the "Before and After" because I'm not quite done yet. My goal is 150lbs and right now I have about 25lbs to go. It being winter and snowmaggedon 2015 its been difficult to keep my activity level up but I've tried to adjust my calorie intake to compensate. This means that, yes, I've started counting calories and I have to say that it isn't nearly as bad as I thought. It helps making better choices all the time a lot easier because I've come to know how many calories are in the things I really crave.. IE Kelmat Sandwiches... Valentine's Day 2015 Day 1 On Valentine's Day, Ben took a photo of me in my snow sliding gear. When I saw the photo I almost couldn't believe it. My mid section and thighs have never ever looked like that in a photo. This is the first photo of myself I've ever seen when I thought "DAMN! Look how skinny that girl is... wait that's ME!" It was an incredible feeling

I have never really had a job where I get to take a whole hour for lunch. This new found time in my life is so awesome and I struggle with what amazing things I can do in an hour. I can go for a ride and listen to my audiobook, write a blog entry, go to Kelmat for a delicious sandwich, get my grocery shopping done, and when the snow is gone I'll be able to walk on my break. Today as I was sitting down to write this entry I got called to our front office because I had a package to pick up. Last time this happened I was disappointed to find that the package was a couple of calendars and a quasi-sales pitch from someone I worked with at Day's who clearly doesn't understand that my role here is way different than what I used to do there.  When I came around the corner to see a gorgeous arrangement of flowers with a card that simply said "I love you more everyday" my heart exploded into pure glee. I am so lucky to have someone in my life that surprises and amazes me.

On New Year's Eve, I had imbibed quite a bit of alcohol and went to Facebook to browse. As you can guess this is never a good idea. I saw a picture my friend Kelsey posted and began to comment with her and her boyfriend Jon Wing....   Kelsey Marie Labbe Laying in bed trying to watch a documentary on arctic animals, but Billy thinks he can catch the birds and the fish on the TV screen... Katie Leighton I'm laughing so hard I'm crying! I'm so sorry about your ruined arctic experience! Bring Billy over to play with Brutus instead...   Kelsey Marie Labbe I think he would love Brutus John Wing It's nerf time! Katie Leighton Do you call your beef gun "the Winger"? If not it should be considered Kelsey Marie Labbe Beef or nerd????oh Katie Katie Leighton OMG ummm auto correct turned nerf into beef.... HOLY first awkward moment of 2015! Happy New Year! .... Ps please still be my friend     After thi

When I began this blog in June of 2013 I had some high hopes for it. I wanted to read it on days that I needed re-invigoration. I wanted it to keep me accountable and I wanted a platform to talk about the issues and struggles I face. When I made it to June of 2014 having lost about 40lbs I felt like I had really accomplished something. I felt better, exercised more, and felt like I had the tools I needed to keep the weight off because I had changed my life, not just my habits. I went on vacation in June of 2014 and since then I haven't kept my blog with the same dedication that I did when I started. My last entry was in October but ever since my vacation I didn't feel like I needed the blog "therapy" as much as I did at the beginning. Its now almost 4 months since my last entry and I have to say that when you title something "Stress will Kill You" then never write anything new again, readers may feel like stress did, in fact, kill me. I'm happy to repo